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Spinning downward
an endless spiral of lies
falling into nothing
everything fading away
losing anything important
in a second my life meaningless
my world upside-down
fighting against the current
being submerged in the truth
struggling for a single breath
my heart stops....
silence
eerily surrounding me
not a sound
not even my heartbeat
all emotions gone
then suddenly....
a pain so intense
engulfing my every nerve
lighting them on fire
my body in agony
screaming
pleading
for sweet release
death, life
anything but this
anything at all
crying out
tears in my eyes
sweat covering my body
this shell only a cover
trapping my soul inside
underneath the pain
the truth too much to handle
such a hurt i’ve never felt
not before now
lies? cheating?
flinches, cringing at the words
the pain now so familiar
it’s become a part of me
somehow my mind functions
taking the truth at last
emptiness sinking in
disbelief clouding my conscience
“no.....oh god no.....not again”
i’m not even alive enough to die
so i slowly fall back into the pit....
alone...
with no one to save me.
© Kathy Anne Harrell, July 2004
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