A feeling

There is a feeling
That I hide
A little feeling
Called suicide

I think about it
Now and then
About everyday
Since I was ten

There are many ways
I tried to hide
To hide the pain
I feel inside

I wear a smile
Which is fake
Much more of this
I cannot take

I starve myself
Because I hurt
I’m scared to show you
What’s under my shirt

I cut myself
Because you cannot see
The pain I hide
Is killing me

So please forgive me
For I am not you
I cannot love me
That much is true

So stay with me
My close friend
And be there for me
Until the end

© Timmy Scott, 2004